What’s it about?
When Annie hands her mother over to the police she hopes for a new start in life – but can we ever escape our past?
‘NEW NAME. NEW FAMILY. SHINY. NEW. ME.’
Annie’s mother is a serial killer. The only way Annie can make it stop is to hand her in to the police.
With a new foster family and a new name – Milly – she hopes for a fresh start. Now, surely, she can be whoever she wants to be. But as her mother’s trial looms, the secrets of Milly’s past won’t let her sleep . . .
Because Milly’s mother is a serial killer. And blood is thicker than water…
Review
I’ve been looking forward to reading this book for soooo long! One of my favorite series since forever is the I Hunt Killer series by Barry Lyga where he wrote about the son of a serial killer and his inner turmoil. Well this one’s the female equivalent.
There’s only one POV in this novel and that’s Annie’s, or Milly as she is called now that she’s got a new life with the Newmonts, her temporary foster family. Her father and her brother fled from home a long time ago, her mother is waiting in jail for the court case to appear. After 15 years of living with her dear mum she has told the police about young Daniel and the other children that came to stay with them and were locked in the ‘playground’. It was enough, it had to stop. All she wants is a normal life and to feel normal but can she really?
Different. That was the first thing that went through my head when I started reading this novel. I didn’t know yet what this girl went through but she was certainly different from us. She continually assesses people, she’s a master observer of other people’s intentions, behaviour and even her smell is more developed than yours or mine.
Good Me Bad Me is Milly’s internal struggle between good and bad and it was quite fascinating to see how she is trying so hard but there are always those little pinpricks of conditioned behavior and of old memories where she’s back in the role of doing what her mother wants her to do. She doesn’t want to be like her mother, she wants to be good but she hears her mother’s voice inside her head who is telling her she looks just like her all the time. Even after all the terrible abuse that she suffered – divulged through small morsels throughout the story – she still misses her and doesn’t want to disappoint her.
I really liked hearing what was going on inside Milly’s head and her internal conversations with her mother made it even more disturbing. There was always a sense of foreboding that something could tip Milly over to the wrong side. Her friendship with Morgan proved difficult, she wanted to share who she really was but was afraid for the rejection as the daughter of a serial killer, and her stepsister Phoebe made it even harder. She’s a real bully but doesn’t know who Milly really is, and with all that’s going on in Milly’s little head… let’s just say I was anxious for the girl. It felt kind of dangerous playing with the daughter of a serial killer.
The build-up to the trial is pretty suspenseful and even then I didn’t know what she was going to tell the jury. In the end though there wasn’t anything I didn’t expect or see coming, I was anticipating something would be up. It’s not that kind of story of many twists and turns but even if it wasn’t, it was very captivating. I felt sympathy, sadness, pity and anger for Milly. At times I wished she had reached out and told her true thoughts to Mike, at other times I could certainly understand why she didn’t.
This is a great debut novel and I can understand why so many readers became so enthralled, it is really worth reading.
I bought a paperback copy of this book at full price. This is my honest opinion.
I’ve seen this book before. Such an intriguing synopsis! Daughter of a serial killer. Judging by your review the author really gets into the psyche of the main character and shows how her abuse affects her even when she’s away from her mother. Excellent review, Inge!
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Yes the whole psychology interests me.. and I just found another book but that one’s even non-fiction :-). I can only imagine what it does to your personality and character when you’re exposed to abnormal things in your life.. Thank you Nikola!!
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Great review I’m so glad you enjoyed it! It still gives me the creeps when I think about certain parts.
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I can imagine, I was more fascinated than anything else though, I’m always intrigued to see how the mind works. Thank you lovely!
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I really enjoyed this when I read it. It’s really well written! Great review! 🙂
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She’s apparently a Mental Health Nurse and I think she really used her knowledge in this novel. Thank you CJ!
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Love your review! I really enjoyed this book too!
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When I updated on Goodreads just now I saw lots of bloggers read it and liked it.. it was a bit of a hype too I believe. It is special allright and a bit different from other novels. Thank you!
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Great review!
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Thank you Dee!
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I was on the fence about this, but i like your review. +1 for the book 😀 I think it’s quite cheap on kindle, so might as well get my hands on it.
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Oh wow, thank you for the compliment! I hope you enjoy!
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I had initially Wished for it on NG not expecting to get a copy anyway, but I like the sound of it and I will pop it into my Amazon list. I like a good character and it sounds like Milly is an interesting one… mention ‘good observation’ and I’m in! Great review, Inge! 🙂
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It is a great debut, I might have expected a bit more from the trial itself and the ending though but the author has experience as a mental health nurse so she’s got that side really well described in the novel. I hope you like it too!!
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This sounds really cool! I love characters with inner turmoils, especially between choosing good and evil. Usually, characters are either one or the other so that is a nice change.
Wonderful review, Inge! 🙂
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Same here, I find it fascinating to see the dilemmas characters are having in novels and the right and wrong angle :-). Thank you Sophie!!
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Sounds like a very good book. Thanks for the review!
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If this is her debut, I’m already wondering about her next novel. Thank you!
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I really enjoyed this book. Great review.
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Thank you so much! We really enjoy the same books then 🙂
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Looks like it! Book twins 😀
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Fantastic Review, Inge!😍 After reading your review I definitely want to read this book!😘
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Thank you Dani! I hope you enjoy it when you do!
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You’re welcome and I am sure I will!😍
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Loved this one! It was a fresh and unique thriller no doubt!!
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I can certainly understand why it made such waves when it was published, there aren’t so many novels like it where they are good and bad at the same time :-). Happy to hear you enjoyed this as well!
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I enjoyed this one too and I still remember having conflicting emotions towards Milly too. Fab review Inge.
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I want more of these kind of books! It really doesn’t surprise me that you liked this one too ;-). Thank you Diana!
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I want to read this one. I didn’t realize there was a trial (which I usually like). Fabulous review!
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Well yes but the trial scene is short and it wasn’t the major event really.. but still interesting. If you ever want to book swap for this one I’m game ;-). I have a FB page: http://www.facebook.com/bookwormsdream (Title EnglishBooks-EngelseBoeken) where my book list is. I have a small wishlist but I’m always open for suggestions too. xxx Thank you Holly!
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I’ve seen this mentioned around a few times, but not really given much thought to it, but your review has intrigued me – must add it to my ‘must read’ pile, I’m looking for crime/thiller reads that are a bit different at the moment, I want something out of the ordinary that’ll keep me hooked right through to the end.
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Thank you Jane for your comment, that’s such a compliment! I did like the Barry Lyga series a little more though so do check that out as well if you like and if you want something a bit different.. I love the two books by Matt Wesolowski (Six Stories and Hydra), they’re very different from your usual thriller format but very surprising too.
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I have been watching this one! Glad to catch your thoughts 😊 I know now that I need to add this! And to be honest, I appreciate that this is told from one perspective. I enjoy multiple PoV but seems so common any more huh? Or just me?
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Now that you mention it, there are indeed quite a lot of novels with multiple POV or with past and present chapters, this one’s pretty linear and was easy to read :-). Thank you love!
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Sometimes that is a nice change of pace 😊
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